Do We Fall In Love?

Love is a very controversial topic universally. So many songs and movies and novels yet we don’t understand it. I certainly don’t understand love.

And I wonder, did I ever fall in love. Things I thought are love maybe weren’t. I feel sad and empty. But I have felt the pain of love. How can I feel the pain if I never have been in love? Love feels like the sparkly glitter we used to buy for handcrafts, slowly spreading the glue and then spreading the glitter on the top of the glue. Then we used to blow away the extra glitter chunks. We pour our heart slowly then spread affection on the top of it. When we blow the affection goes away but memories remain and memories shine.

Maybe love is like an anklet. Someone walks away wearing them, leaving a faint tinkling sound behind. The sound that echoes through the room, the sound that reminds us of someone’s departure.

Is it easy to leave when you love someone? Like one fine morning, you don’t love that person anymore. You just simply pack the baggage, you fall out of love and you just leave without making a sound. Even after knowing that nobody will follow you. Maybe before leaving we all want to hear that “ please don’t leave”. Just once. Maybe we wait for love to save the day but love is like a god, it never appears.

Maybe love is an overflowing cup. You keep on giving and giving without getting any refill. and after a while your own cup is empty and then there’s nothing to give. The owner of the overflowing cup says “ who the hell ever told you to fill my cup”. And you realize that yes, they’re right. Nobody told you to fill the cup but you did willingly. But at what cost.

My thought on love trembles. Maybe I don’t understand love and thus never fell in love.